In my last post, I talked about growing up with a parent with an intellectual disability and my experience of posting a video that went viral, which feels kind of embarrassing to say. Considering I rebooted my therapy Instagram after deleting, deactivating, reactivating, and recreating the account about three times over the last seven years, it was quite a surprise, to say the least.

I decided to keep talking because I truly believe this discourse has been long needed. With that being said, I have been yapping daily online about my experience growing up, along with other thoughts I have throughout the day. Nonetheless, I have been letting a lot out that I might not have otherwise done.

As a result, my dreams have been wild. The day after the video started to go viral, I began having dreams about people vomiting, which feels ironic considering I have emetophobia (the fear of vomiting). A couple of days after the first vomiting dream, I had another one where someone else got sick and threw up all over the walls, except it looked like green spray paint, almost like graffiti. The day after that, I dreamt I was driving down the 101 heading south toward Hollywood, and the hills to my left were all on fire.

My Interpretation of the Vomit

Let me preface this by saying I am not an official dream analyst, but I do love dreams and I love analyzing and learning about themes. To me, these feel pretty obvious, (like, oh yeah duh) I would dream about throwing up considering how much I have been running my mouth and letting things out that I have held in for years. I was told for years not to talk about it and finally let it all out. I totally provibially barfed on everyone online.

As for the vomit appearing as if it were graffitied onto the walls, my own thought is that it represents a version of me wanting to be seen and heard.

In both dreams I witnessed either someone throwing up or the aftermath, it actually did not come out of my own mouth. This was interesting and made me wondered if because I am afraid of throwing up, I was kept somewhat safe in the dream. Another thought that kicked around was maybe I was having the experience of other people watching me just let it out. I am not sure, but it's fun to see what is projected (no pun intended) and interpreted.

My Interpretation of the Fire

My first thought with fire was life, death, and rebirth, in that I could be burning down my own status quo, which was essentially me keeping a lid on parts of my life. As corny as it is, it feels very much like I am burning down what once was and rising from those ashes. For a lot of my life, I have been plagued by shame, and it feels good to burn it down.

What does it mean if you throw up in your dreams? Or what does it mean if someone else throws up in your dreams?

Throwing up can be quite symbolic. If you have recently gone through something where you purged something or someone out of your life, that could show up in our dreams through vomit. Another thing that could manifest in throwing up could be if you recently rid yourself of something that was causing you harm, similar to how the body naturally ejects what is poisonous (whether it is perceived to be real or is actually real). If you are the type of person who holds a lot in, maybe you don't speak your mind, maybe you don't feel worthy of speaking up, maybe you've spent years not being heard so now you have the belief that what you say does not matter or falls on deaf ears. Moreover, you might feel like speaking up does not matter. If these are some things you relate to, throwing up in your dream could be a representation of all that has been repressed. This goes for someone else throwing up, it could represent someone being the conduit to your release, or maybe it represents someone you know in your life who does not stop.